"When the Ego Takes the Helm: A Journey Back to Authenticity"

I find myself mindlessly scrolling again and when I do that its a sign I’m falling into my ego patterns again. The ego does not rest, it takes every opportunity to estabilish its value. Why we cannot live without the ego it is not meant to be the captain of the ship. But we have given it control of every aspect of our life, and now we are all on a journey of reclaiming our life, and bringing our I Am presence to the helm of the ship. The trueself was always meant to be our guide who we truly are

and what we desire from that perspective is to experience life, to be creative and live in true awareness ,in a dark world.

Authenticity comes from the I Am presence within us, and as we remove the ego, our authenticy can reveal itself more and more. As we become more authentic, we also become more creative and magnetic.

I realize my journey here as a healer puts me in a quandary between my higher self and my ego. My desires are to be fully and wholly authentic and bring forth what I have to offer, that which comes from within me, which is beyond anything that I can learn in this world.

What I offer is what I have learned through my own healing process.  I have been through many healing journeys throughout my life, and I know this will continue. This is where my true ability and compassion for offering healing comes from. I truly feel I am your humble servant creating a safe, loving environment for you to actually allow your healing to take place. The session is a union of our energies with the energies of the Multiverse and when we let go of all expectation and have the courage to move into the unknown, healing can take place. I am not healing you.

I have been made humble through my own life experiences. There was a time when I felt that I have conquered my fears and healed my woes and now I can just create but, I woefully misunderstood what it meant to be truly free and authentic. I actually was living to sides of the coin separately. My ego self was still living the patterns I created to remain safe in this world and separately I could step into my I Am pressence, trueself, in my spiritual/healer world.  After this honeymoon phase of expecting doors to open for me  and they didin’t, I began to plummet gradually even unknowingly. I went into yet another dark night of the soul filled with physical ailments, self judgement and depression. I ultimately ended up chronically ill and unable to partiipate in life. What emerged was my deepest hidden fears, unknown traumas and false beliefs, things that I created at a very young age to survive in this world. I had no idea they were there.

I knew what it was like to truly not be able to function and how much I desired to be free. This led me to a state of self acceptance, of presence and of self love, even if I didn’t recover. I gradually did recover, and it took my full dedication in the process. I found things that worked to help me heal physically through diet and supplements. I consistently did metaphysical work on myself, diving into old wounds, allowing them to be felt, seen, surface and release. I also went to other healers which, helped me to release things that I wasn't aware of and regulate my energy field so that I could work even more clearly and deeply. I emerged more fully integrated, the spiritual and physical aspects merging, becoming whole.

I look back now and realize how much dedication that all took. I now realize to continually maintain and become more authentic requires that same kind of dedication and commitment, otherwise known as will power. I would have to say, having willpower is probably one of my greatest weaknesses but, that experience brought me unknowingly into an opportunity to cultivate my willpower.

The gifts from my healing experience keep unfolding there's a blessing in everything we experience. I didn't even grasp how important , the aspect of building my willpower, was for me at the time, until I actually wrote this down, right now. All I know is I am here to become my most authentic and best self that I can be. Secondly, I'm here to serve you on your journey to become your best self. This is the intent of my healing sessions, thank you and God bless you.